First of all, to those of you who are battling cancer, effected by cancer, suffering from the loss of a loved one because of cancer (or really any other means of loss), caring for a loved one battling cancer and all of the in between, know that I am thinking of each of you. I lie awake at night with your stories on my heart and my mind. I use that time to pray for you. This journey is sooo hard and even when you may think that you have the easier road, that road somehow proves not to be so easy.
In my battle I knew within my heart that I needed just one person to be willing to pray over me. I believe in the touch of a loving God that even in the midst of our battles HE loves us. Not every situation turns out the way we hope for as well and for those battling or caring for one who is, we hold on to that dire HOPE that the chemo is working or that science will improve and that new treatment options will become available.
The one thing we are all looking for is more TIME.
When you find out you have cancer .. no matter the stage.. you go to the thought.. I am not ready to go. But then you wrap your mind around the fact that you have very little control over that.
I know for me I began literally preparing myself for the fact that I could very well lose this battle. Had I prepared my family? Did I train the girls on how to cook or set up things for the holidays? Could my husband carry on the traditions? Could they survive without me?
These were all very real thoughts I had.
I am well aware that when you are battling cancer, things can go in a lot of different directions and I had to come to terms with that.
I also came to terms with my conversation with God.
"Lord, please heal me!"
"Lord, use me and my story for you."
"Lord, if you choose to heal me eternally, I also accept that."
The initial shock of " You have cancer" hits and you go into a panic mode. I remember really thinking, I've run out of time.
Then you fight. You give it all you've got and you surrender the fight to HIM!
Then you wait. You wait for results.
Sometimes you get to breathe and other times you weep. You weep because the results are not what you hoped for.
After a good cry you pick yourself back up and you keep going.
This is the rollercoaster of this beast!
The one thing I knew for sure was that I needed a person willing enough to not just say, "I'm praying for you" but to actually come and pray over me. I was desperate for that.
I don't think the prayers have to come from someone who speaks loudly or acts all crazy lol. I think it honestly just takes someone who is willing.
With that said, if you are that person who needs someone willing.. Please reach out. I will gladly be that willing person. I will gladly pray with you or over you.
If you are reading this and you are near someone who might be going through this, also stand in the gap and offer yourself as a willing vessel to pray over someone.
You are not alone in this journey friends! Stay strong, keep the faith and pray!!
Feel free to also send me a message with any prayer requests.
I am here!
I love you!! 
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